Pat Dollard | Young Americans

I wonder about how many more to go?

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Glitter Girl Says: “A day without Pat Dollard is like the day he finally kills you, and you hit that moment in the spiraling sweep of the darkness, when you think, “I really didn’t need to do that. Why in the fuck did I do that?”

1:32 A.M.

Sorry I wasn’t up on the site yesterday, but the widow of Corporal Conley came to town to see some things. The footage is not going to be especially easy to watch, so today was about discussion, not viewing. For her, it is a process, because by seeing some other things she realizes this is not about just watching footage of her late beloved husband, but about being thrown into the middle of his whole world, a very grim and punishing one, and she has an instinctive sense that to be too suddenly hurled into that life would be jarring and disturbing for anyone, and about a million times more so for herself.

Conley was the vehicle commander, front passenger seat. Fourth vehicle behind us was hit with an IED, and under fire. It was 11 PM, no electricity in the city, can’t see more than pretty much whatever’s right in front of you. Radio’s not clear, we’re the command vehicle, the one that’s responsible for knowing as much of what the fuck is going on as possible, but because the radio is fulfilling its earlier promise of the evening (before we even left Conley was cursing out the crackling receiver, screaming, really, “Goddamn this radio….why is everything going wrong tonight!? This is a bad sign, this is a bad omen.”), and an officer not on the scene who thinks he REALLY needs to know some info we can probably get pretty quickly, in a minute or two but he is certain he needs AT THIS SECOND, is on Conley and the Lieutenant’s ass to get it to him AT THIS SECOND, so Conley makes the decision to walk out into the besieged abyss all the way back to the last vehicle, opens the door, exits, and slams it closed with a final classic Conley “Goddamnit”, my head and camera turning slightly to follow what is becoming his shadow out the window and then everything in the world instantaneously becomes a brilliant flash of blinding light, and I am released…

…and later, about a football field away, we are retrieving Conley’s earthly remains while futilely trying to keep the Lieutenant’s able to yet contain his soul.

And even then I seethed with a rage at a loss that probably would not have occurred had not so many people at home been determined to encourage the enemy to fight instead of surrender. I can imagine the anger of those at home, never here, who felt the same about all of America’s Corporal Conleys and Lieutenant Fitzgeralds. Don’t bother yourself, however empathetically you might try, to imagine my rage there on the ground, at that moment, with many such days and nights yet to face, because you can not.

It’s a rage that hasn’t abated to this day.

What disturbs me the most, is that the new Commander in Chief, was one of the culprits. That’s not a notion, a theory, an argument, or an idea. It just is.

9:40 A.M.

The Commandant’s Marine Corps Birthday Message

12:16 P.M.

In thinking about how Obama became President, I realized that we invaded Iraq and won, and Iraq was now better for it, but arguably we were worse. A loser became a winner, a winner became a loser. And perhaps, a totalitarian state run by a dictator through a cult of personality enforced by a personal army became a true and stable democracy, and a true and stable democracy became a totalitarian state run by a dictator through a cult of personality enforced by a personal army.

But not anywhere in real events can the engine for the above scenario be found, but only in an illusion, an illusion scripted by a political party and the most powerful media force in history.

3:11 P.M.

I’ve just been asked to appear on the Michael Savage show. Is there a significant reason I shouldn’t accept? I know a lot of you fuckers hate him.